I finally let it go...

Today was a very random day, for multiple reasons.
I decided I was too worn out to go work out today, so instead I had a huge bowl of ice cream, with chocolate syrup, and sprinkles...because I can.
For the past two days, whenever I get up I have this lost feeling, I almost wish I would stop dreaming because they are pointless and lately they have just been creeping me out. Some people say they wish they never remember their dreams, I wish I was one of them.
While I was studying, my dad walked into my room and flopped onto my bed, this alone was weird enough because my dad never really comes into my room. He just laid there and eventually I broke the silence and asked him if everything was alright? He looked at me with this sad look in his eyes, I noticed that how much he had aged in the past year from his gray hair to the wrinkles on his face. He simply stated that he was lonely, which caught me completely off guard because loneliness is an emotion I didn't even know my dad could experience. For the first time in 6 months I wanted to give my dad a hug because I loved him, we've had a pretty rocky relationship lately but before that I had always been my dad's little girl. He's changed, he's no longer as strong as he used to be, he's starting to become that cute little old man which is weird to me. At that very moment I realized that my dad doesn't have the group of friends he's had his whole life in India , he was very social, he gave all that up for us (me and my brother) and although he has had unrealistic expectations that I refuse to live up to, I still love him.
So today for the first time in months I hugged my dad because I felt like it, I got a little teary eyed, and although neither of us said it, I think we both realized that no matter what happens in the coming years, we will always love each other no matter what.